I was so hyped. I was nervous. I hadn’t been to a show in such a long time let alone a band I really love.

I come across GHOST musically in 2019. They were on a playlist. It was Square Hammer and I was hooked. I then listened to Prequelle and after then I fell in love with a band that would mean so much to me and help me through a very difficult time of my life. They gave me a release that I’ve always looked for in music. For a while I really lost love for everything in life until GHOST came along. And saved me. Before I heard of them musically I actually was aware of the band through a friend of mine who used to guitar tech for them up until meliora cycle. That was a time of my life I was snobby about music and would only listen to punk rock! 

Anyway fast forward a couple of years. Me and my partner found our love through GHOST she used to go to wrestling and Year Zero was the entrance music to a wrestler. So when we started dating and we both asked which bands we liked GHOST came up and we clicked instantly (although my obsession with the band was/is abit more unhealthy haha) so we waited out to get tickets then Covid hit. By that time we were living apart too.

So we had GHOST to keep us going, fast forward then to April 2022 our first ritual together in London, England. I was so hyped. I was nervous. I hadn’t been to a show in such a long time let alone a band I really love. We arrived at the venue which we had our photos taking in front of the huge poster there.

I was getting even more hyped and anxious. We went and grabbed food before doors. I walked to get some Merch and I walked past Chris Catalyst but I was to nervous to say hey! I spent £100 on merch woooops! The doors opened I couldn’t believe I was finally seeing my favourite band. The support band were great too.

There were some very rude people who I know at gigs you get pushed but to be pushed out the way and not say sorry your just come stand on your feet and in front of you when your 5”6 ain’t great. (I like manners they don’t cost a thing). “Sorry”, “Excuse me” and “Thank you” are so easy, anyway.

On came GHOST and I was just stood there in complete emotional state, I was so over whelmed it was a lot to take in, I was in such a bubble. I was in my bubble that hour and half nothing else mattered but being absorbed into the music and the most amazing band I’ve ever seen. We travelled down from Bristol so it was a couple of hours drive and it was so worth it!

We recently went to Download Festival on the Sunday. Again all the same feelings but I was more excited this time I had more confidence about me. It was extremely hot that day, half way through the day my partner almost had to go home, and we almost missed GHOST but we managed to keep shelter and the clouds started rolling in. We found a nice spot not too close but not far away. As we don’t do well with being crowded out. Soon as Imperium stared playing I had goosebumps, then they came on and that was it I was lost in the music in that bubble but this bubble was different, my happy place my partner said other than watching GHOST the best thing is watching me watch GHOST because she knows how much I love this band.

I may not have all the merch, I may not be at the front, I may not ever get VIP, but my love for the band is so strong. And Tobias is a genius and not just that. He’s helped me so much along the way by letting me be me for a couple of hours when life is so stressful those moments and his music has taken that away, and it’s been such an incredibly important journey the last few years. I can’t wait now for the next UK tour to be announced, hopefully we can do a couple of shows on that tour.